# 6 Determined!

A note to myself! :3

So Don't ever Quit! Just Do It!! 

Like what Nike said ^^

It's time to study real hard to face the challenge :)

李燕欣! 加油!

# 5 Total breakdown

Life is the first gift..

Love is the second..

Understanding the third..

I guess I'm still looking for the third gift

Patience, Understanding & Healing!

I guess all you need is just Freedom..

More than enough to bring me comfort :)

Love <3 can be as beautiful as roses but 

be careful you might get hurt by its thorns

The reason I hate "Sorry"

If you do nothing wrong just don't say it!

If you did, please fix it rather than saying it~

I wanted you to know I try my very best to express and share with you my feelings but it don't seems to go smoothly every time.. When it happens it makes sharing with you twice difficult than before.. What is the point of expressing it when you just hate to see the weak and insecure me? Might as well I just keep it to myself like before and pretend I'm alright with a bright smile~ but I still try to tell you every single thing although it might hurt more at the end because this is what you ask for and also what I want - Honesty! pleaseee.. I hope you understand that things are not always the same as for you.. you might feel is just a small matter but every single small matter means a lot to me and even more when it accumulates! It's okay if you don't get it but at least try to be good to me when I need comfort? I know sometimes I'm just being ridiculous like a kid and don't make any sense.. but please don't show me faces and raise your voice.. it just shattered my heart <3

# 4 Need some fresh air!

Today did a 30 minutes aerobic exercise :) Have to try my best to do it everyday! must lose weight already~ The whole day do nothing just laze around.. can't get myself to open my notes and study :/ It seems like a century I haven't step out from the house and almost suffocate in here so I decided to go out and gasp for air (if not I think I might die :P) So Win and I went to Paragon for Moo Cow froyo to chill out~ Have been wanting to step in there but can't find the right time..

Low tide. Look so different than before. Is it too long since I was here? lol

St Jo~ just random shot..

Sample for us to try the flavours.. Honey Calamansi & Blueberry

still prefer original the most =D yums~ but too much sunflower seeds i guess ><

Smile :)

The Decor

Meet Suria~ lol

After that rush back home to fetch Mei to tuition cause parents were busy shopping for baby clothing for my two cute nephew :) Drop Mei in Tesco to buy her dinner cause she really out of time. Then both of us went back there to have our dinner after drop her to the tuition centre.. At first we plan to hang out there till Mei finished her tuition but parents have no keys to enter the house so we went home.. Manage to study a little bit (starts to feel guilty =.=) Study mood! Please come back to me!! I need you desperately!

Our dinner.. really can't think of what to eat anymore.. sigh..

# 3

another boring day @@

routine for the day :

1. eat

2. study

3. tv & laptop

sis pay more attention in sms-ing rather than doing homework~

same goes to me.. doing nonsense :P

dinner for the two of us.. the cook : lym

simple yet yummy :)

bie called and finally settled down in his 'real' room in UK..

got lots of things i wanted to share and hear from him but my mind turns blank for that moment and he doesn't seem to have much things to share with me :/

supper bought by parents and sis after work in PISA..

this otak-otak taste good! ^^

bolognese spaghetti with grilled chicken, mashed potatoes and also coleslaw

conclusion : gain a few more weight for the day >:(

# 2

Home alone today~ 

Everyone goes to work and also hang out with friends, left me studying at home. 

But I did not really study a lot. Most of the time is used to watch tv and skype with him.. haha xD 

I am really a very impatient person. 

Waiting is equals to killing me. 

My mood suddenly turns good when he pm me and a immediate wide smile on my face :) 

Dad came back during lunch time and cook us fried balacan rice. Instead of balacan taste, the pepper taste is stronger. So it became fried pepper rice. LoL.

Act cool early in the morning :P

During dinner time, I got cold sweat and shaky hand when i cook instant noodle. Maybe blood pressure too low or something >< Although this is not the first time but it feels quite scary cause is like I'm going to faint in no time if I didn't feed myself with food any sooner. 

Anyway, I had instant noodle, hot milo and also a few crackers (kiam pia with peanut butter jam and kaya) 

So I guess this is a heavy meal? Fat die me seriously!

~My dinner~

Red Ginseng Mask
(3D)

Nice skin please ~

# 1

Once I woke up this morning I keep thinking bout him.. thinking where he is now whether he is doing fine and more.. this is the first day he left for UK for his degree.. so life goes on without him by my side.. watch quan wang before i got the mood to study.. keep looking at the time and check fb for his news.. although no news from him but I'm glad his friends got post up their whereabouts.. then I came across a post where everyone receive news from their bf except me! starts to get moody so instead of studying i went to lie on the bed.. went to pasar malam with sis.. bought her phone cover and then we go makan.. met sm and sy.. so coincidence.. we eat halfway and it started to rain.. so we went back home and i check on fb again.. he never leave me any message to comfort me instead he just posted where he is.. damn depressing! so you still don't understand me afterall.. after we chat and all.. i wish this will not happen but.. haihzz.. (T-T)

only tears accompany me  :'(