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when something went wrong i just don't have the courage to blame it on others.. although i will get mad at you but it won't last long because sooner or later i will start to blame it on myself instead.. i will get moody and don't feel like talking.. because i just don't know what i should say or do.. to say i'm sorry because i feel guilty or blame it all on u because i am right? i always thought that i don't have the right and qualification to blame it on others since i am not that good too.. don't ask me to scold you or hit you.. not i don't want to.. i just can't.. i am afraid i will lose all of you.. that's me! i don't have that much confident in myself and i lack of the secure feeling.. so please don't take away my limited confident and courage i have.. i've tried my best to be a happy go lucky girl.. but please don't forget i am just another weak girl in this world.. i'm weak inside and i do have hard feelings too.. i don't like showing others my weak side because i feel others wont pity girls like me.. they will just feel i'm annoying and then hate me :( please be kind to me.. i just don't want anyone to dislike me..